Tuesday 16 December 2008

The Transition

I open my eyes
It’s beautiful
Breathtaking
Something shining
I close them again
It’s just a dream
A dream
Slowly I try
They peek
And see
It’s still there
Not a dream
I breathe deep
Again
I open
And I see
The world
A brilliant shade of green
Something still shining
Calling me
Inviting to a place
Still unknown
But splendid
Beyond compare
I scan the horizon
Covered
In splendour
It must be a dream
I don’t close my eyes
I don’t want to leave
And I scan the horizon again
Before my soul is beckoned
For the last time
And I slip into the place
Forever
Happier than ever

© Quratul Ayn 2008

Wednesday 19 November 2008

The Intricacies of the Imperialised Word

I’ve lost touch I suppose with the kind of words that once flowed
From my mouth, my heart and my soul
It seems that timeless eternity has engulfed, my imperious ability
To grasp and hold colonially in my grip, the poor words that once had meaning
Perhaps today I have deprived their downfall by my sincere wish
That they would return and I with empresses kiss
Would return their once favoured and glorious worth back to them
For deserveth they do, though I no longer can restore what I did take
For I am now wounded in this cell of theirs
Unbound by love, hate or fear of any kind
Only numb to the intricate details of their minds
Had I missed something less divine, I would not now be so lost and forlorn
But surely, my deepest regret lies in that I didn’t see beyond this ambiguity
With metaphors and paradoxes have they finally caught me,
And what I knew so well has now become simple fallacy
How sad that I should be here today, at peril and far from harms way
In a web of words caught between sense and irony

The power of words has had its glorious victory!

© Quratul Ayn 2008

Wednesday 27 August 2008

I was just thinking...about blessings

I was just thinking…

‘Then which of the Blessings of your Lord will you both (jinns and men) deny?’
(Surah Ar-Rahman, Ayah 13)

Subhan’Allah, this ayah is such a reminder. I was thinking about the unfairness of a situation, when this ayah suddenly came to mind. Almost immediately I felt a jolt back to reality. How often did I actually value what I had rather than what I didn’t? What I possessed rather than what I could still obtain? What I valued rather than what blessings I missed?

Truly our Rabb swt is Most Merciful, for how often do we miss thanking Him for the things He has blessed us with and instead complain about what we don’t have. Reflecting on this aspect I came to the slow but painful realisation that I had indeed ceased to be grateful to my Master. The Only One who cared enough to give me life, endow me with my sense of sight, smell, and touch, gave me ears to hear with, legs to walk with and a heart to feel the deepest of emotions with. Subhan’Allah, and this isn’t even an outline of a minute number of the blessings we take forgranted daily.

With a sudden zeal, and with the very close approach of Ramadhan, I decide to make a sincere intention to be grateful for all that I have been gifted with…the most important and most beautiful gift being that of Imaan. The next time I want to complain about something, I need to think twice before I say something that I might regret. And with this, the hadith of the Prophet SAW comes to mind,

Allah’s Messenger, (Sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam) said, ‘How wonderful the believer’s lot is! His lot is all good. Nobody save the believer is as such. If bestowed with pleasant occurrence, he would thank (God) and that would be good for him; and if afflicted with a misfortune, he would keep patient and that would be good for him’
(Muslim)

Subhan’Allah…how merciful our Rabb swt is. He does not even afflict us with a calamity unless it is to grant us something beneficial in return. All we have to do is remain patient. Another blessing! Alhamdulillah!

So, with the coming of the greatest month of our year, let us all strive to be grateful to Allah swt for ALL that He has blessed us with and strive to please Him swt, for truly who can love us more than One who constantly blesses us with His gracious gifts even when we give Him nothing in return?
© August 2008 Quratul Ayn

Wednesday 6 August 2008

Back to Blogging....

Assalamu-alaykum wa-rahmatullahi wa-barakaatuh

Dear brothers and sisters,

I pray Allah swt is showering His Love and Mercy over you all. Ameen. I pray that you will all forgive me for my long blogging absence. I’ve been preoccupied with many things until now, and have hardly had time to pen to paper – unless it’s to write student reports or mark exam papers! Alhamdulillah.

Despite this, I suddenly have an urge to write again and Alhamdulillah – all praises are due to our Rabb swt – I’ve decided to start sharing with you a short rambling series based on some of my toppling thoughts. I’m going to call them

'I was just thinking….'

It’s interesting. I was having a conversation with a sister and she was describing the qualities she would like in a husband, one of them being someone who is a deep thinker. At first, I misunderstood her, thinking she spoke of one who thinks about conversations and ideas, mulling them over in his head until he literally drives himself to breaking point – hardly an attractive feature in any human being!

But Alhamdulillah, with her eloquence she explained to me what she had really meant. She read to me the ayah of the Qur’an where Allah swt says…

(This is) a Scripture that We have revealed unto thee, full of blessing, that they may ponder its revelations, and that men of understanding may reflect.
(Surah Saad, Ayah 29)


Subhan’Allah! As soon as I heard this ayah her meaning became clear. Truly, to attain deep thinking is not to mull over silly conversations that have passed between two or more human beings. But instead, it is to remember that we have to ponder over the signs and creation of Allah swt. By being placed around human beings who interact and cause waves of emotions to rise within us, it is hardly surprising that we often forget the more important aspects of life. Those that do sit back and ponder on the creation of Allah swt are fortunate indeed, not only in that they are remembering Allah swt at all times, but also because they have been described as ‘men of understanding’.

I came across another ayah where Allah swt reminds us of His Divine control, His Immense Power…

Verily! In the creation of the heavens and the earth, and in the alternation of night and day, there are indeed signs for men of understanding.
(Surah Al-‘Imran, Ayah 190)


Isn’t it amazing that as human beings we are so caught up in this rat-race of life, so devoured by our ambitions and goals, that we fail to recognise simple happenings that we take for granted on a daily basis. For instance, have we ever pondered what would happen if there were no nightfall tonight? Or the sun didn’t rise at all tomorrow? What would become of human kind with this simple ‘blip’ in nature? What if the plants stopped transpiring and hence stopped growing? What if our hearts stopped pumping and the blood round our body stopped being circulated? How would we react to simple but crucial changes in our lives? Do we ever ponder that everything works in perfect equilibrium only because of the Complete Control of our Rabb swt?

I’m amazed at my own lack of insight when it comes to such beautiful and truly miraculous signs of nature. Subhan’Allah! Then it makes perfect sense – as do all of Allah’s words – that true believers are those who ‘…think deeply in the Qur'an…’ (Surah Muhammed, Ayah 24), and if they do not, then truly as Allah questions ‘are their hearts locked up (from understanding it)?’ What a miserable state for a soul to be in. When clear guidance has been sent down to him, and he does not take heed simply because of his own preoccupation with the temporary life of this world. How sad that being a creation of Allah swt himself, he cannot even ponder on his own being and the wonders of nature that not only surround him, but upon which he so heavily depends.

See you not, that Allah sends down water (rain) from the sky, and causes it to penetrate the earth, (and then makes it to spring up) as water-springs and afterward thereby produces crops of different colours, and afterward they wither and you see them turn yellow, then He makes them dry and broken pieces. Verily, in this, is a Reminder for men of understanding.

(Surah Az-Zumar, Ayah 21)


Allah swt has given us the Qur’an as a reminder so that we ponder and understand it’s meaning, so that we can remember that death is behind us at all times, waiting to return us to our Rabb swt. Hence, without contemplation, and sincere reflection on our lives and the signs of Allah swt, we cannot truly gain a love of Allah swt and nearness to Him that will benefit us in both worlds. Those who strive to please Allah swt and take Him to be the One they truly love, will follow without question, any advice that He gives. I pray that Allah swt, enables us all to ponder on His creation and take lessons for our lives, to understand the worlds that He has created and hence to work towards His pleasure and the aakhira. Ameen.

Those who remember Allah (always, and in prayers) standing, sitting, and lying down on their sides, and think deeply about the creation of the heavens and the earth, (saying): "Our Lord! You have not created (all) this without purpose, glory to You! (Exalted be You above all that they associate with You as partners). Give us salvation from the torment of the Fire.
(Surah Al-‘Imraan, Ayah 191)
© August 2008 Quratul Ayn

Sunday 1 June 2008

The Poem of Death

Perhaps it is words, perhaps it is just me
Sitting strangely alone, haunted by eternity

In a moments thought, fear banishes integrity
Such hope thus I lack, such dear lives of humanity

And yet days drag slowly by, and my moment is dragged into a years territory
So much so, I become nothing, nothing more than a living memory.

© Quratul Ayn 2008

Tuesday 8 April 2008

The Shadow of Worth


It’s head looms bigger than mine over me, threatening almost, to swallow me?
And it’s shoulders are somewhat distorted
They stand at odd corners and…no, no, they really don’t do justice to the body.

The arms, well they’re sort of hanging,
Large and looming, like they’re going to grab me.
But nonetheless, they are surely stronger than mine…at least that is how they look.

The hands are a tad bigger
Perhaps more so than the shoulders, or is that just beyond common sense?
No, they appear almost the same…I’m sure.

The body isn’t that much larger, though its position almost makes it appear…
Well, bigger? More robust? Powerful?
Umm…I think it’s just a lot more full…eager to feel it’s worth.

Comparatively I suppose, I suppose I’m much smaller.
Height, life, worth…but then I wonder
Why does it not have features, like mine…what of its eyes, ears and mouth?
Does it have any sense?
Taste, smell, touch, sight or sound?

And as I move, I see, suddenly…
like a rock bounded back to earth, a comet through the universe
I feel, with certainty,
My shadow has no worth
Just as little as my ego
Because I am a perfect creation of my Lord (swt)
and my ego only a creation of my insignificant self.
© Quratul Ayn 2008-04-08

Friday 7 March 2008

The Short Examination

'It is through life's greatest miseries that one can experience eternal joy'

(Simple Reflections - Quratul Ayn)

Thursday 3 January 2008

Eternal Pleasure

'Many a man allows the pleasures of this world to burden his hereafter'
(Quratul Ayn - Simple Reflections)